So, with things a little happier in the area of fitting in with other women (something I feel is important in helping me hone my wife and mother skills), I can't help but notice how few single friends I have. I find myself wondering why this is...I know YHVH has a plan for me. I know He loves me. I know He chose me to be part of His people Yisra'el. Yet, I do not know why He has me as an outsider still in the area of marriage and family. I still need to work on growing a servant's heart, on how to be thinking about how I can serve my Master, then my brothers and sisters in Messiah, then my husband to be, then my children and not just think in terms of wanting marriage and a family because they are nice things to have. My future family deserves more, and my Master deserves much, much more.
So pray for me, dear ones, that I would be like clay, and let the Potter mould me; that I would let the Ultimate Artist draw the masterpiece of my life without wanting to rub 'mistakes' out when they are in fact essential to the final outcome; that I will let the Weaver create a beautiful tapestry even if I can only see one small thread at present. How this will all work out, I do not know, but I know all things work out for His radiance, and that He loves me as one of His chosen people. And how can I be dissatisfied with that?
Shalom, beloveds.
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